Do you ever get to the point where you don't seem to know which way to turn? Do I quit my job? Do I divorce my wife? Do I run away? Do I stop caring? Do I work harder? Do I cry out to God? Do I give up?
I am not saying I am contemplating any of those things, but I am sure that someone out there is thinking at least one of them. There is a war in Iraq, Afghanistan and Libya that we are part of. Health care is going through the roof. Jobs are scarce and it seems like if you are really dumb you get to be a leader. It can get very depressing. I know I get to the point where I start to depend on myself more and more. The bad thing about that is that I am an idiot as well and can never quit seem to get it all right. It is like being a juggler on a unicycle with chainsaws running full blast just waiting for you to miss. When you got it all going, it is incredible, but all of a sudden you hit that little pebble on the road you didn't see and the bike starts to wobble, just a little bit, then you start to swerve, but you're still good. Then you start going downhill a little and things are still all right. But then the hill becomes steeper, there are rocks instead of pebbles on the road, someone starts yelling at you and there is a kid hiding behind the hedges up ahead with a paintball gun. So, now what do you do? Stop the ride of course. Throw the chainsaws away from you, don't want them to accidently slice your leg off. Put your feet on the ground and catch your breath.
I know I need to turn to the only one that can make all of this right, God. How to I know that He can do this? Simple, because He has before and I know that He will again. It is hard to argue against your own experiences. I don't need to show historically, logically or archeologically that the bible is true and that God is real and that He loves me. I have experienced it, and I am honest enough with myself to know it was not a higher enlightenment within like that. I know He will take the wheel, guide the steps, light the path, hang the signs, write the manual, kick me down the path I need to go down. All I have to do is let Him and stop trying to do it myself. But it is definitely not easy.
How about you? How hard is it for you to let go? What do you want to do on your own? And why do you think it is so hard to let God be God?
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Why? I think it's because we can't see Him and then our faith becomes weak, or weaker. Thing is, I don't believe He kicks us down the right path. I more see him as guiding us down the path, like you used to guide me when I was learning to ride my bike. You'd hold on to the back of my banana seat and run behind me with your cut-off jean shorts. :) I can still feel you steadying me when I'd start to fall to the left or right. Eventually, you let go and before long we were riding together playing cops and robbers up and down the driveway. (With an occasional stop at the sweet gum tree for a fill-up, of course.) He leads us, just as the psalmist says in Psalm 23.
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